July 18, 2014 Status

I checked the mail today---no Celebrex, which was to have been mailed out from Ortho office Tues a.m.  Probably forgotten.  Lab report from St. Mary's as ordered from Dr. A., was inconclusive: he'll repeat if I wish.  What the heck, now I have to direct my own medical care, in addition to plotting my way into the hospital and then back home.  I want my mother, and my sister.  When my knees were obviously deteriorating, Dorothy said she could no longer have that surgery but thought I should have it.  I told her I was waiting for her to get strong enough to see me through it, but that didn't happen. 
    I have a vision of Dorothy sitting, waiting for me, in the hospital lobby, alone in the cold darkness of an early morning in late winter of 2003.  I had  arrived for surgery at 5:30  in the morning, and she, who was almost always running late, was already there, all by herself.  It meant so much.....