May 1

    The positive about a Blog is that it can be deleted at will, just the way a life is.  One final touch, and it's as if it never existed.  I've deleted many posts so far, on other blogs besides this one, many in the early hours  that never saw daylight. I keep this post in defiance of the maxim that nobody cares about your troubles and many are glad you've got them.  Blogs owe nothing to anyone, and are at the total discretion of the owner, as far as I know anyway.  I will delete my entire blog when the time is right;  I blog as a way to exorcise the thoughts that pervade my mind, as a way to keep in contact with how I thought at an earlier time, thoughts that have meaning only to me.  Though others  may "care about you,"  they, being preoccupied with themselves, are  never able to care enough.  No one cares anough to want to know how you think, or what you think, especially as you age.  You live the realization that any investment is doomed to be short-term,  not a solvent venture. To not  accept the inevitability that you  are the sole and ultimate source of your own self is to travel down the path of submitting your mind, and body, to the control of others, who can have no idea of who you really are.  Nobody knows.